Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Definition Essay

Love

Love, what does it really mean? Many people have different perceptions of it. Merriam-Webster Dictionary says love is “a warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion.” I agree with that, but there are many other underlying levels of it. There is free love, mother love, God's love, true love, a love of a friend, family love, and so much more. Love, in my own words, is a feeling that overpowers everything, it is compassion and adoration of another person, and it is a mutual feeling of affection. Love is when the person in love accepts their lover’s strengths and flaws; they love them for exactly who they are. It is necessary in all life forms; without love, life isn’t worth living; without love, life would be empty.

A love toward a friend is something very powerful. Without friendship, we as humans would be incredibly lonely. It takes time to start loving a friend. Trust and comfort are two things that really matter in friendship. Friends are there to support you, to care for you, and to make you happy. A best friend or a life-long friendship is hard to come by, but when you find one, you know it. I have a friend, Elizabeth Hoehler, and I love her more than anyone on this planet. I know I can trust her with anything, and if I need someone to talk to, she’ll be there in a heartbeat. I recall a time in my life where I was frantic and called her crying; she said she would be over at my house as fast as she could. Elizabeth doesn’t have a car, so she started walking the seven mile journey to my house until she found a friend to drive her the rest of the way. That was the moment I knew that I had found a friend who cared about me and would love me unconditionally. I am so blessed to have met this angel in my life, and I don’t know what life would be like without her in my life.

Family love is something you possess the minute a baby is born. Mother love is something that can never be broken; a mother will love her child until the day she dies. The second that child is brought into her life that child is hers, and there is a connection made that cannot be destroyed. The same rules apply with family love as they do for any other type of love, but family love is harder to break. A family relationship can collapse when there is neglect, disrespect, deception, or abuse, just as any other relationship can. It depends on the person, but I think it is easier to forgive a family member for the past than anyone else because they are always going to be your family. It depends on the extremity of the situation or trust that is broken, but typically people will always love their families no matter what.

Another kind of love is true love or love towards a partner. This kind of love occurs when two people connect in a romantic way and love each other for who they are. This kind of love takes time to manifest; it’s a huge step in the relationship when “the L word” is said. My boyfriend, John, and I have been together for over a year now, and we are in love. He makes me very happy and when I’m around him I feel invincible; not many people can do that to someone. My love for him is indescribable. Most people find true love with a partner multiple times in their life, but there are some people who find their soul mat the first time.

When some people find true love, they get married. Free love is defined as, “the practice of living openly with one of the opposite sex without marriage” by dictionary.com. I personally don’t believe in marriage. My philosophy is that you can love someone and not have to possess a ring and piece of paper that says you’re going to be together forever. I also think it is unnecessary because if you happen to break up, it is a long, legal, and pricy process. Living with someone and loving them is no different than being married, besides sharing the last name and the title of “wife” or “husband,” Mr. and Mrs. Whomever.

Some people like the security of a higher being, or someone looking after them. They like the safety of knowing that there is something or someone looking after them--that would be God's love. God's love is different for every person, but in my eyes, it is the comfort some people need to feel optimistic about life. Several people believe in heaven which makes them feel at ease; knowing that after life on earth is over, their spirit will still live on is soothing. It makes them have something to look forward to after death.

Love is a very powerful feeling that affects everyone and every thing on Earth. Love is surrounding us constantly, no one can escape it. I can't generalize the feelings of everyone on an emotion as strong as love, but my opinion about love is that it conquers all. It is a mutual affection between two people or things. It is shared between friends, family, partners, God, animals, and so much more. It is acceptance of that certain person and who they are. Love is seeing the beauty in the thing you love. World Book Dictionary defines love as "to be very fond of; hold dear" and "to embrace affectionately." So embrace the world, hold dear to the people you find important in your life, and enjoy the feeling of love.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Macbeth II

Many people have been affected by peer pressure in a bad way. They are influenced to do something they don't necessarily want to do, but feel that to fit in or to impress this certain person they need to do what they say. Sometimes that certain person being pressured is in a blur of confusion and they do what others tell them without thinking that it's against what they believe.

I can't recall a time where I have been pressured to do something I don't want to do. Usually, when I do something, it is because I want to do it, and it doesn't matter if others are doing it around me or not. I have the power to say no and I will use that to my advantage. Why would I do something I don't want to? I don't need to impress anyone or fit in; I am my own person and I am going to stay that way.

Macbeth's morals tell him not to kill the king, but Lady Macbeth says otherwise. She is so caught up in the glory and fame of being queen that she forgot what was right and what was wrong. Lady Macbeth manipulated and pressured her husband to go along with her evil plan. Macbeth went along with it because he didn't want to disappoint her, which is another main reason people do things that others want them to. Some people feel that if you love someone, then you can't disappoint them and you have to do what they say, WHICH ISN'T TRUE. Macbeth and Lady Macbeth are a perfect example of peer pressure.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Macbeth

So far in Macbeth, three witches predicted the fate of Macbeth and Banquo. Macbeth was destined to be king, and the witches told Banquo's children will be kings. This will cause conflict between the two friends because they are both hold the cards to have honor and glory in the kingdom of Cawdor. The worst is coming out of both Macbeth and Banquo. Greed becomes a strong subject in the play, as well as morality.

Macbeth has the desire of being king, but realizes that for that to happen, the current king has to die. His wife on the other hand, is pretty cold-hearted about the king and his well-being. She is too caught up in the fame she would have to be queen; being royalty is her one desire. To get what she wants, she manipulates Macbeth and has a plan to kill the king. Selfishness is another key point in the play.

Banquo wants the fame and glory of being the father of the king. He wants only the best for his children, but for that to happen there has to be a chain of deaths in the aristocracy of Cawdor. The current king must die, and since the witches predicted Macbeth would be king, Macbeth would also have to die. Banquo doesn't see the situation this way, he just wants the glory and fame of having family be royalty.

Macbeth, Lady Macbeth, and Banquo are losing their morality by thinking only of themselves. Macbeth I believe is the most moral, not wanting the current king to die. Unfortunately, Lady Macbeth is greedy and power-hungry. Banquo is too caught up in the fame his family would have if one of his sons became king.

I see this play becoming a tragic mess. I am going to predict that when the king dies because of Lady Macbeth's evil scheme, Macbeth will become king. I also predict that Banquo will become jealous of Macbeth and he will make a plan to kill Macbeth for his son's future. Morality will diminish in this story; killing your best friend for fame is low and scummy. In the end, no one will be happy and the kingdom of Cawdor will fall to pieces.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Personal Narrative

I remember it better than any other day of my life. It was September 10, 2007 and I was lonely and depressed. Trying to do homework at the kitchen table was no use; I had nothing to look forward to in life. I didn't feel like myself anymore. I felt empty and unappreciated. I wanted to check out. Yes, I, Eliz Reese, felt the need to take my life.

There were many things I can recall at the time that put me in this state of mind. One was my "best friend," Sheala, who threw me out like a piece of garbage. While pretending to still be my best friend, the rude remarks and running off with her new friends instead of me really got to me. In my mind, this was all my fault; obviously I did something wrong.

Another turn of events that pushed me over the edge was my dear friend, Micheal Ridgway. I'm not going to go into detail on what happened and why we drifted, but he told me he needed his space from me and didn't think we should be friends anymore. Soon after he told me that, he would ignore every text message or phone call I would send his way. I don't know which one hurts more, having a long-time friend tell you they don't want to speak to you, or having a supposed best friend ignore you and not tell you why. I couldn't decide at the time, but all I knew is that I was losing my friends one at a time and it was all my fault. Less and less love was coming my way. I wasn't giving myself any love either and, well, the world is a very lonely place without any love in it.

There is no need to blame others for the way I had felt. It is no one's fault but my own. At the time, I kept to myself. I would cry myself to sleep silently, but not tell anyone why. I never expressed my emotions to anyone, not even my mother. I would bottle them up and dwell on them constantly. One day in class, I decided it wasn't worth it anymore. I didn't want to deal with all the heartbreak and unhappiness. I figured there wasn't much else to look forward to, and heaven would be a whole lot better than planet Earth.

Sheala's parents were going on vacation and she was going to stay with us for a week. Sheala was raised differently than I was. She didn't have to call her parents when she wasn't coming home and she could hang out with whoever she wanted whenever she wanted. My mom was out of town on a bike trip in Europe, so I was staying at my dad's house at the time. Sheala was supposed to come home with me after school and settle in. Her parents were supposedly coming over to meet my step-mom and dad and talk about how the week was going to play out. That was the idea.

It ends up that Sheala had better things to do than to come home with me that night. She called me and told me she was taking pictures for her photography class in another part of town with her friend, Annie, whom she ditched me for constantly. I wasn't going to object, she was already there and it was her life. There was another catch. She was sending the message from her parents to mine that they were too busy packing for their trip to come to our house. I knew that wasn't going to go well with my dad, but I had no control over the situation. I hoped that he would understand.

My dad had a very explosive temper. When he came home stressed and tired, I knew this wasn't going to go well. He asked where Sheala was and I told him. He asked me if Sheala's parents were coming and I explained to him their situation. He blew up in a furious rage and I let his words tackle me like a football player. I cracked. In my unstable state, all I could think about was pulling the plug. This was the last straw for me.

In my mind, thoughts were racing. Despair was pulsing through my body. Every insult my dad was throwing me was being absorbed into what I thought was the truth. Every time I was ditched or told I wasn't good enough, that became my reality. I had most certainly had enough. I pulled out a bottle of pills and said, "I'm going to take all of these and you won't have to worry about me anymore."

That was the end of the anger. Now he was worried, frantic, and concerned. He tried to talk me out of it, but it was too late. I made up my mind that if I stayed at home that night, I would kill myself. I wasn't safe, and I needed to stay somewhere watched. I needed help more than anything, and that's what I was planning on getting. I didn't really want to die, it was more of a cry for help. My mind convinced me that my life wasn't worth living anymore.

We called Sheala to come home, but after an hour of waiting at my house, we left. She was worried, any friend would be, but we had a long night ahead of us. It broke my heart to think that I didn't matter enough for my best friend to rush home to come see me. My dad and I drove to Urgent Care in Littleton and we checked in. Seven hours we spent in that dull hospital room. There was no TV, just a bed and a chair. They put the suicide risks with the drunks, so we had a little entertainment. We listened to the nurse who was taking care of this woman who was out of-her-mind drunk. As amusing as it was to overhear this nurse talk about the most obnoxious things with this woman, I could not smile, I could not laugh. I felt nothing.

Finally, at 3 AM someone came in to evaluate me. They needed to determine if I was safe enough to go home. After a few questions, they came to the conclusion that I needed help and they sent me to Centennial Peaks, a mental hospital in Louisville. I had an ambulance ride, and had the worst nicotine fit I think I have ever experienced. I was very upset, and cigarettes were my therapy.

"Hey, can I have a cigarette before you take me inside?" I asked.

"Yeah, sure. When we get there," said the ambulance attendant.

I never got my last cigarette. Quitting cold turkey is the worst.

I was then sent to the night-time social worker, where she asked me another series of questions. By this time I was so lethargic that the entire interview was a blur. Once she was finished, she sent me off to bed. Sitting on the inch-thick, single bed mattress with my snoring roommate next to me, I went right to bed. I had finally found relief; the night was over.

That night was one I will never forget. It taught me how to stand up for myself, and how to tell people how I feel. I am now on the right medicine with the right coping skills and I am loving life. The most important thing I learned from the experience was that it is okay to ask for help, no matter what the situation is. The situation I was in made me the person I am today. That night made me become a more optimistic person. I always know that when I hit rock bottom, there is nowhere to go but up.experienced barist

Friday, March 20, 2009

Introduction

Hi, I'm Eliz Reese. This is my introduction. :)

1. What do you expect out of this course?
I expect everything that an English class is suppose to be. I plan on doing some reading, writing responses and essays, participating in discussion boards, and editing. I think it's fun that we put everything on a blog. It's secure that way; if your computer crashes, what do you do? You get it off your blog! It's also a good way to share work with peers who can revise your writing or tell you how great it is!

2. What skills do you want to learn?
There isn't anything in particular that I really want to learn. I want to read a book that will actually teach me something. I just want to become a better writer, I don't know how to put it any better.

3. What are your strengths in English?
Writing comes easily to me, and I think it is one of my strengths. I like to express myself with words. I like using different words by using an online thesaurus, so that makes me build my vocabulary. I also like to read books. I think it's a whole lot more entertaining to use your imagination and imagine the text rather than to watch TV.

4. What are you weaknesses in English?
I think it is difficult for me to find good word choice. I believe that is my biggest weakness in English. I tend to use the same words a lot, and when I do learn a new word to use, I forget it almost instantaneously. Another weakness I have in writing is figuring out what to say when I run out of ideas. If a paper has to be so many pages long, I may run out of things to say before the paper is finished. Usually I ramble on, saying the same thing over and over, and I need to find a way to brainstorm more ideas about a subject.

Scruples: Macbeth

1. Your car will soon need a new transmission. Do you sell it without informing the buyer?
-ABSOLUTELY NOT! I am an honest person, and tricking someone to buy a car is wrong. Being dishonest is not something that will get you far in life.

2. You are drafted to fight in a war you consider unjust. Do you refuse and risk prison?
-I don't believe in war. I don't think killing each other solves anything whatsoever. I don't know how to avoid being drafted, but I know there's something you can file for that says you can't go to war because of religious beliefs? Something like that, I don't remember. All I know is that I would not go, I do not support the U.S going to war for no reason. The Iraqi war was a joke, and we should not be there. George Bush made a fool of himself when he found nothing, and the pathetic part of it all is WE ARE STILL THERE!!!

3. A friend wants to copy and swap some expensive computer software with you. You know it's illegal. Do you swap?
-Sharing is caring is my belief. I think that company makes many millions of dollars off of their expensive product, and if a friend needs this software(for legitimate reasons, obviously), then I am willing to give it to them. For example, burning CDs for friends is illegal, but everyone does it. Sharing music is not really a big deal anymore. I mean, if an artist is going to charge me $20 for a CD, and I can get it from a friend for free, which one am I going to choose? It's not the right thing to do, but it's a lot more convenient and the artist is making a lot more money than they know what to do with.

4. You dislike all the political parties. Do you vote?
-No, you do not vote. If you disagree with a political party's point of view, then don't support them. It is important to voice your opinion and make an impact in who is going to run your country, but if you don't agree with what they have to say, then don't support them.

5. A vagrant asks you for $1. You suspect he/she will spend it on alcohol. Do you give it anyway?
-It depends. If they're singing or doing something to get your money, then yes. There's a bum downtown that hangs out downtown at the lightrail station, and I always see him. Sure, he'll probably spend it on cigarettes or alcohol, but that is his decision. When he's jamming out playing my favorite Bob Dylan song with his guitar, a harmonica, and a tambourine on his foot, he deserves that dollar.

6. You are shaken up on an auto accident. A lawyer could get you a large settlement if you exaggerate the extent of your injuries. Do you do so?
-It kind of depends on a few things: how banged up my car is, how much my medical bills are, and how much money I have at the time. If I am flat broke, my car is totaled, and I don't have health insurance, then yes, I may exaggerate my injuries. I wouldn't feel right doing it, taking that much money from another person, but everyone looks out only for themselves.

7. You have been attending classes all year. An acquaintance, who rarely shows up, asks you to photocopy your notes, do you consent?
-I don't have a problem with friends copying my notes. I have an issue with someone asking me to copy a test. Notes aren't a grade, they are a study tool.

8. Your significant other has had an affair. You have no idea how long it's been going on. Do you leave him/her?
-ABSOLUTELY. I do not tolerate cheating whatsoever. I think that would be the only time I would hit someone, in all honesty. Cheating is the biggest slap in the face you could possibly get from a significant other. It is messed up to cheat, and I think that is probably one of the worst things you could do to someone. It really would hurt your self-esteem. I've never been cheated on, and it takes a lot to irritate me, but that would push me over the edge.

9. You and a friend have liked the same guy/girl forever. Your friend confides in you that she/he has finally gotten up the nerve to ask this person out. Two days later that person asks you out on a date. Do you say yes or no? Do you tell your friend?
-This situation is tricky. I don't want to hurt my friends feelings, nor do I want to date the same person that my friend is. That is a lot of unwanted drama. I also don't like dating people who are dating other people. Someone macking with two or more people is not okay with me. Have one person you are dedicated to, that's what I think.

10. It's your first chance to vote in a presidential election, and it is a very close contest. When chec king that you are registered to vote, you realize that you are registered twice. Do you vote more than once?
-No, one vote is enough. I don't have to voice my opinion twice. That isn't fair to the other candidate, and it needs to be a fair run.